[Tuesday the 12th of June 2007 ] Welcome back. I'm just going to jump right into this months thought. As a Christian woman, I believe that it is important for me to "train" to be a great wife. That might sound a lot lamer than I actually intended it to, but basically, I am preparing myself to fully stand behind my husband. It might be extremely unfeminist of me to not want to be the top woman in my career field, but I feel like a successful, life long marriage is more important. Now that doesn't mean that I don't have my own career goals but I also feel like the man should be the breadwinner. He feels more respected and needed that way and why should I try to out do him? There is no one else in the world that I need to one up as long as my husband respects what I bring in. I also don't think that a marriage can be successful if you have two people with intense career goals. How do you decide whose is more important? Because it WILL come up if one of you needs to move. And when one gives up their dream, don't you think he or she will resent the other in the future for their life not turning out the way they wanted it to? So many times I hear people refer back to some decision they made that ultimately effected their current lives and I don't want that to be me. I don't want to blame my husbands career on me not being a top interior designer. I love interior design and it would be great to be the best, but not at the expense of my family. Anyway, this is all a few years (as least) in the future. And perhaps I shouldn't be "worrying" about it, but as more and more of friends get engaged and married, it's just something I think about. I am so excited about the challenges that we'll face and how to tackle them. It really will be an exciting time, whenever that comes.

[Thursday the 10th of May 2007 ] So today is the day I take control of my own destiny. I am leaving school for an undetermined amount of time for a couple of different reasons. If there is anyone who thinks I lack ambition or am goal-less, know that that is the farthest from the truth. First and foremost, my parents need a break from paying the high tuition every month, especially with Stephen entering college in the fall. I already have student loans and taking out more would just add my frustration. I've had the chance to chase my dream for four years and it is Stephen's turn, I don't want my schooling to be a burden on my parents or him. Secondly, I am so ready for my life to begin and I can't wait two years for that. I am literally burnt out. My heart isn't into picking out fake drapes for a fake house for a fake client, although my passion for Interior Design is still burning. I just need REAL things in my life right now. I want to work interesting jobs and travel the world. I want to move and experience life in a different part of the country. I want to be with friends that have so much fun and I want to join a church and grow in my faith! The awesome thing about this is that I can return to school whenever I want. And I will graduate. A bachelors degree is important to me and it's something I want to have. I'm just afraid that if I don't take a break now, I will regret it. And who knows, maybe in my travels I will meet the love of my life and we can get married and start a beautiful family... Wishful thinking, perhaps? =)

[Wednesday the 11th of April 2007 ] It's literally been ages since I have touched this thing and I feel that it's time for an update before I completely abandon recording my thoughts. This one is going to be a doosy, so find a comfortable chair. =) Maybe I should start off by saying that I am a different Erin from the one you knew on my last update. I am growing up and I think that's huge. I'm finally taking control of my life and seeing that it heads in the direction I want it to. I am loving the United States and I want to visit them all. Old me would have been too nervous to make the move onto an airplane or semi-truck, not anymore. I am also growing up physically. I am getting contacts and working on becoming a woman. I'm almost twenty-two years old for goodness sakes. I am going from only being a full-time student to having FOUR jobs as well as going to school. These jobs aren't about me making a ton of money but about me fullfilling my need to create and LIVE. Now, some of you may be wondering how I am emotionally. Three words: I am happy. I am so capable of being happy single and I'm glad for that. I can't be one of those people who always needs someone to like them in order to be happy. I have great friends and I am meeting amazing people, what is there to be upset about? I do have to say, though, that happiness reaches a new level when someone does care about you, be it in the same town or on the other side of the world. Just the act of knowing that someone, somewhere cares about what you're doing and WHO YOU ARE is amazing. It's life affirming in a way. Sort of like, "I turned out great." And it's even better when that person cares about you for the right reasons. I'd rather have someone love me because I'm me, than someone who has based the whole relationship on things that change. Which brings me to my next point. Nick has said some things about relationships that I think are ingenious. Opposite personalities with similar interests is the perfect combination. I completely agree. As long as the fundamental beliefs are the same, it doesn't matter what else. I also think that if you care enough about a person, you should make it work. For example, let's say I dye my hair an outrageous color and it looks horrible, I want my boyfriend/husband to say "what is this, joke time? please dye your hair back!" Once you care about someone, you will do anything to make them happy and I think that's important. I would rather him be honest with me and risk hurting my feelings temporarily than for him to lose interest because he isn't attracted to someone with gross hair. And that train runs both ways. Now onto what I've been doing: In february I had strep throat which caused by body to break out in hives for like a week, it was sort of cool. I starting hanging out with Deanna, who is an awesome girl. We went to see West Side Story and shopping. Musicals and shopping...is there anything better? I'm still doing Interior Design even though I almost had a nervous breakdown about it. I guess i'll stick with it because I still get SO inspired by random things that it's stupid for me to supress that. I am still owning people at word games and trivia. I just recently got back from Michigan, where I spent two weeks with Andrew, Nick, and Trista. Love them. After one week they wanted me to stay for another and after two weeks they now want me to move. Who knows? When Stephen goes away to college, the last place I want to be is here. I'm also working on my room, trying to finally get it finished. Like I said before, I'm going to have four jobs soon. That means I get to buy a day planner, smartphone, and business clothes and no one knows how elated I am about that! I've also got my own health insurance, finally. I'm really excited about my life starting and I just have to say... whoever finally ends up with me, he is the luckiest. =) P.S. My puppy continues to grow at an outrageous rate. He is probably 80 pounds now. He'll out-weigh me in a month.

[Sunday the 25th of February 2007 ] I would like a small black SUV so that I can get one of these: Somehow my dad and I got to talking about VW Beetles... Erin: Yeah, VW Beetles were popular back in 2000, it was a "trendy" car. Do you think people still want them? Dad: I think people do. Erin: No, I think people are probably embarrased that they have to drive the Beetle that they begged for. Dad: I don't think so. Joe said that his wife liked their Beetle so much that they recently bought another one. Erin: Can you honestly take anyone who drives a Beetle seriously? I mean, let's say someone shows up to an important business meeting in a Beetle. What's your reaction? "What is this, a joke? Is it joke time?" Dad: *gasp* I am going to tell Joe that you said that!

[Thursday the 22nd of February 2007 ] Sweet dancing Jehovah! My exzema is slowly but surely coming back.  Only on one finger though. So, it's been awhile, livejournal. How have you been? I've been okay. I guess that's all I want to officially say on that. I want to touch on a few things, first of all my trip to New Mexico: Game Stop, tetris, Wal*Mart, Saw I-III, Little Miss Sunshine, gameboys, Mitch, Chilis, dish soap in the bathroom, mythbusters, mexican food, the greenest grass found at the school for the visually imparied, good-will, scrabble(!), coffee, sheets, las cruces, sheets, las cruces, an amazing church, robbie & violet, bowling, LAUGHING WAY HARD, Full Metal Jacket, art work & a mirror, 1/3 of the 40-year-old Virgin, calichi's and frozen custard, High School Musical, Holloman Air Force Base, freakin' chris daughtry and my chemical romance,  your leather couch, gorgeous weather, a rose, cooking and baking together, going to bed early, sweating so much, thinking 10am is sleeping in late, belting out some cartel, scrubs, sports, existing... I got home saturday night and the first thing I noticed was that my puppy is HUGE! What have they been feeding you? I also warped in six hours from a beautiful 70 degrees to below freezing with a foot (or more) of snow. Man oh man. Stephen and I spent yesterday taking pictures and playing with the destroyer. Tomorrow i'm going to go see what my hair would look like permed.  I'm also super overwhelmed with school this session. At least i've started breathing again.  Lastly, i've got a few jobs that I'm looking at. One is a receptionist for an kitchen and bath designer and the other is an assistant appraiser for real estate.

[Sunday the 18th of February 2007 ] All entries about my life since New Mexico are being posted privately. So please log in if you wish to read.

[Saturday the 3rd of February 2007 ] Brian was unafraid to think of the future, believing she was in it. He talked about them when they were thirty as easily as when they were twenty. He talked about babies and who would get Tibby's extra-long second toe. He wanted all of it. He wasn't afraid of saying so. He liked to tell her his dreams, and he always dreamed in we. "Who's we?" she asked the first time he recounted to her a long complicated scenario. He looked at her, perplexed, as though she was kidding around with him for no good reason. "You and me."

[Tuesday the 23rd of January 2007 ] Over a year ago I did a "roll call" and I think it's time for another one. My readership has changed so much and I like to keep on top of those things. So if you ever read my entries, leave me a comment below. Thank you. =) joiseynick: so what's his name? erin would say: peyton...as in manning. joiseynick: good thing you didn't name him eli. joiseynick: he'd walk around all depressed, staring blankly at the ground... joiseynick: instead of throwing 80 yard passes and winning the superbowl.

[Monday the 22nd of January 2007 ] Sweet love, renew thy force! There is a lot going on for me right now, but not a lot that I'm willing to share. I'm better today, I really am. I just wish people wouldn't look at me as a child who needs protection. I'm so happy with my life at this moment and conversations like that take me from a super high to a real low. Hopefully in a few days everything will settle down and I can move on with my life. Hm...I thought there was more to say. "So...you pretty much have everything in close proximity." "Yeah...everything except you."

[Friday the 12th of January 2007 ] So I guess I should update this thing. I'll start off by letting everyone know that we got a puppy! He is the cutest thing ever. His name in Major, that was the name the breeder gave him and we decided to keep it. He's eight weeks old, we brought him home last night. And get this, Miller's mother is Major's grandmother. How weird is that?? Anyway, i'll get some pictures soon. I'm trying to give him a break because he's new and timid. Things seem to be going well for me. School started on Monday and i'm already finished with my first week of classes. These sessions always seem to fly by. I'm having a lot of fun with other aspects of my life too. =)

[Monday the 8th of January 2007 ] Saying goodbye to my red room. It's the end of an era.

[Sunday the 31st of December 2006 ] The following was answered sort of fast. I've done the same survey for about four years now and I think i've outgrown it. Two-thousand and six was such a unique year in many ways, it was hard to answer a lot of these questions without thinking about each one. ( More... )

[Monday the 25th of December 2006 ] Merry Christmas! I hope everyone enjoyed their holidays as much as we did. I should really update on the days before Christmas before I post the pictures. On Friday we went to a party at Dee's house and it was nice to see Nick and meet Trista. Afterwards I played laser-tag with Nick and Mari and I don't want to "toot my own horn" or anything but I was pretty awesome. On Christmas Eve we went to my grandparents house and then to Mike & Tara's. I'm so blessed to have the family that I have and I love them all. Christmas day started at 10:00AM when my dad woke us up. I remember waking up at 4am and playing mario-kart until five and then waking my parents up... not the other way around. I'll start off the pictures by showing our family portrait for this year. ( More... ) I got everything I asked for and then some (aside from a puppy, naturally). I love my Nintendo DS and it's hard to actually find playing time with everyone else grabbing for it. Stephen got his Wii and he almost broke my arm playing bowling (true story), luckily I survived THAT injury. I also gave my legs and butt a workout playing that game, it might just be the new pilates. There are pictures up there showing the quilts I made for Stephen and Andrew, i'm quite proud of them. Later that night we went to Mike and Taras and played scrabble and uno. They also tried the holiday meal flavored Jones soda, they're much braver than I am. Overall, Christmas was very nice this year. It wasn't anti-climatic like it usually is... My one wish though, I wish it had snowed.

[Tuesday the 19th of December 2006 ] Weird dreams ruin my mood. I don't even know where to begin with this one, I guess I won't go into too much detail except to say that I got MARRIED. I wish I could remember to who. :) It's strange that I woke up thinking it could have been anyone, usually I know who i'm dreaming of. Anyway, it made me feel lonely. Sometimes I think that an arranged marriage would be interesting--"worth the challenge." Who even says that? This is what dreaming does to me! Speaking of marriage (this is the controversial entry I eluded to a few weeks ago), what are your opinions on people marrying outside of their religion? I see this question asked a lot on survey's and the typical response is "if the other person is open-minded, I don't see the problem." However, I honestly can't imagine marrying a non-christian. And more often than not, I see friends of mine (male-friends, actually) going after girls who are not christians. I feel bad for them, but i'm wondering what the appeal is. Of course we're all guilty of having a crush on someone who is (and probably never will be) good for us, but as we get older, shouldn't we be making a list of standards? For me personally, being a Christian is the only "standard" that I really have. In other words, it's a MUST. So now I open the door to Christians who feel that your future spouses religion doesn't matter and I want to know why. Out of strict curiousity only and NOT judgement.

[Saturday the 16th of December 2006 ]

[Friday the 15th of December 2006 ] Guess who's... ( more... )

[Tuesday the 5th of December 2006 ] If I could, I would sleep with a laptop tucked up underneath my shirt but electrical burn doesn't seem too appealing. I am always cold. Tonight I made make-shift knee warmers out of tube socks. I'm excited for Christmas, but I don't want to give too much away about what i'm doing for you! I want to mail out christmas cards with pictures, but i'm not sure if that's a possibility. Hopefully I can get around to getting some sort of portrait taken. I'm reading a lot lately. I've started Mark (the Holy Bible) today because I want to read the four gospels around Christmas. Currently I'm reading the Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver and The Worlds Last Night by C.S. Lewis. What I really want to say, though, is you MUST read the Book Thief by Markus Zusak. It was seriously one the best books I have EVER read and I mean that. If you've read any literature about the holocaust and world war two, this is up there. And it's not written from the point of view that one would think. It's about a girl living in Nazi Germany. On another note, how long am I going to let you belittle me? I guess I tolerate too much but really, it's getting old. I'm a person and I can fathom "adult" situations. Please don't treat me like I just turned 13. dad: you're supposed to keep up with the traffic on the highway. erin: not necessarily, just because everyone is speeding doesn't mean you have to. dad: yes it does. erin: so if everyone was taking cocaine and shooting up heroin, you would too? dad: absolutely! erin: well in that case, I hear everyone is buying their children a puppy for christmas... so you better get on that. P.S. Check back sometime this week for an interesting entry (if I ever get around to writing it). I have a feeling it's going to controversial.

[Thursday the 30th of November 2006 ] Can I have a migraine everynight for the past week? Geez. The commonsensicle me thinks I shouldn't wear headbands, ever. The hypochondriac in me knows it's a tumor. A real update is coming soon, I promise.

[Wednesday the 29th of November 2006 ]

[Tuesday the 28th of November 2006 ] Andrew, take notes.

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